Sometimes being a blogger is weird. It can be complicated when it comes to sharing struggles because someone will always have it worse and if you share something difficult, it opens you up to criticism and often times criticism is not delivered with kindness. This can be hard to handle especially if it comes during times when you already feel vulnerable. This sometimes limits me from feeling like I can completely and candidly share what’s going on in my life because I never want to come across as complaining, whining or ungrateful.
I am so ridiculously lucky and thankful to have the life I have, a family I love and a job I adore. I know I am fortunate and focusing on gratitude is something I truly do every single day. Focusing on gratitude is something I attribute to the backbone of the way I live my life and the optimism I feel comes naturally to me. I try my best to be open and honest on this blog and so appreciate you guys following my life and the experiences I choose to share in this space.
The strange thing I’ve noticed lately is that sometimes I struggle to share a lot about the “regular” days that end up feeling like one of “those” days. You know “those” days… the ones that just feel taxing and exhausting for a myriad of reasons. The kind of day where nothing HUGE goes wrong but a lot of little things seems to chip away at your patience and energy. The kind of day that feels a little more challenging than usual for a myriad of reasons. It’s oddly easier for me to share about the big things that are REALLY hard (like miscarriage and loss) but harder for me to share about the small things that can feel tough sometimes. The mom guilt. The parenting struggles. Worry and doubt. The feeling that you’re doing a billion things… but nothing well.
Yesterday was one of “those” days and my first thought as I sat down to blog this morning was move on from the day and work on a blog post for tomorrow instead of sharing a Monday recap like I initially planned. But then I thought about something else that’s been weighing on me. I thought about the way I feel when I find myself scrolling through Instagram, Facebook, blogs and social media in general. It’s almost always a picture-perfect look at someone’s life and that’s just not reality. Maybe people will share about the REALLY hard things (and I’m so grateful when they do!) but so often the kind-of-hard-but-not-really-too-bad-in-the-grand-scheme-of-things things that happen in everyday life don’t get shared. So what are we to believe? Life for everyone else is either perfect OR it’s horrible? What about that place in the middle – our real, everyday life – that’s usually really, really great but also challenging and not-so-great sometimes, too?
Yesterday was NOT a horrible day for me. But it was a rough day and a day I’d classify as one of “those” days.
I had a doctor’s appointment to go back in for some blood work related to my second miscarriage because the lab didn’t get enough blood the first time. As someone who still feels queasy at the thought of anything medical, I surprised myself by feeling okay about the blood draw going into the appointment. The nurse began to take my blood and she said my blood was draining very slow. She then wiggled the needle around in my arm and I began to feel light-headed. She moved the needle around in my vein and pushed it harder. I felt the blood drain from my head and thought I might pass out. I was moved to another room and the nurse apologized for what she called “bad needle positioning,” re-stuck me in my other arm and everything was smooth sailing.
Was it a horrific experience? Absolutely not. But it was kind of sucky in a mostly regular way. Couple that with the flickering concern and worry about what the results from this blood test will reveal and I left the doctor’s office feeling down.
And then I got texts from my mother-in-law, my dad and my best friend in Florida with photos of damage from Hurricane Irma in Sarasota, Orlando and Jacksonville and instantly felt guilty for feeling down. Now THAT is a problem. A hurricane is a REAL problem. And suddenly I felt horrible for feeling even the least bit upset and frazzled. There it was – perspective – to instantly bring me back to reality where I counted my blessings and felt foolish and ridiculous for feeling upset about my not-really-a-big-problem kind of problem.
And this is EXACTLY the kind of thing that prevents me from sharing some of the seemingly mundane things that bring me down in day-to-day life. They don’t even compare to what others are going through at any given time. But, then again, maybe they are worth sharing for someone else who just feels like they had one of “those” days, too. Maybe they’re worth sharing sometimes because real life isn’t solely made up of high highs and low lows but mostly happens in the middle. I don’t know.
I rushed to pick Chase up from preschool on time since my doctor’s appointment ran over and made it with three minutes to spare. His teacher gave him a great report and he nuzzled his head under my chin as we dashed through the rain to our car. I felt good again.
We made it home and as Chase began to eat, he winced at nearly every bite and said “tooth hurt.” I looked in his mouth and his gums were red and inflamed and he began bleeding after he tried to take another bite of his food. I quickly researched local pediatric dentists on my phone and was able to get in to see one in the early afternoon. Mom guilt flooded over me. How did I not see this earlier? He had a high fever on Thursday… was I wrong when I didn’t call the doctor? Are we not doing a good job with our son’s oral hygiene? What did we do to cause this?
The dentist examined Chase’s mouth and immediately told me there was nothing we “did” to cause the inflammation and it was related to a common viral infection and should go down within a week or so. (It’s also not contagious. Thank goodness because I instantly worried about his preschool classmates and teachers.)
We arrived home, I made Chase a smoothie hoping it would help him get some food in his belly in a pain-free way and tried to get him to relax before his (delayed) nap as we rocked and read a book together in his nursery. He quickly fell asleep… for 30 minutes.
I had just enough time to begin working and checking things off my to-do list for two upcoming brand partnerships. I was counting on his naptime for a solid two hours of work but knew that would have to wait when Chase woke up and his mouth was clearly bothering him. He was crying and uncomfortable and I didn’t know what to do to make him feel better. I scrapped my work plans and turned all of my attention to Chase and helping him feel cared for, comforted and loved.
So throughout the day yesterday I felt like I was failing as a mom. I felt like my body was failing me. I felt like I was failing at my work. I felt like I was failing as a wife when I snapped at Ryan at the end of the day.
I felt like I was failing left and right.
And part of me thought all of that wasn’t worth sharing. Maybe it’s not? Maybe it reads as one big whine fest but but then again maybe it doesn’t because maybe a few of you out there have felt like you were failing at times, too. Maybe it wasn’t one horrible, horrific thing that happened in your day to make your day a really bad day but maybe it felt like one of “those” days anyway. Maybe it’s OKAY to share when we have one of “those” days that wasn’t THAT bad but also not THAT good either, because that’s real life and that’s how life goes. It’s not always happy, easy, seamless, beautiful and Instagram perfect.
It’s missed deadlines, feeling sick, feeling defeated, doubting yourself, doubting your parenting and all of the messy things that come along with real life.
So for my recap of my Monday, I’m just here to say that my Monday was one of “ those” days. It wasn’t a BAD day. It wasn’t a GREAT day. It wasn’t the kind of day that deserves pity or sympathy or cards. But it wasn’t perfect either.
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Yes!!! This is REAL LIFE. This is MOM LIFE.
Love the raw and the heart-felt posts!
Kudos to you! And the best thing about “those” days is that it make you love the next good day even better!
Here’s to Tuesday – a good day!!
Thank you for this comment! <3 And I totally agree -- they definitely make me appreciate the next "regular" day that then feels like a "good" day. Hope you have a wonderful Tuesday, Ashley!
This was such a refreshing post. Like you, I also feel that it occasionally feels like everything is either perfect or horrible in someone’s life when that’s not the case at all. Some days really aren’t awful but they aren’t amazing days either. Except you need those in between days to really appreciate the great days. I hope the damage your family sustained from Irma is not too terrible and that the blood work comes back with good results. Feel better Chase 🙂
We all have one of “those” days! And it didn’t sound whiny, it was the truth! I would be annoyed if the lab hadn’t taken enough blood the first time, who does that?
Thanks for being real… I had one of “those days” yesterday too! Hope Chase feels better soon and you have a better day today!
Julie,
Thank you for this post. I totally agree with you we typically see the really good or the really bad, not the meh blah days. I know its not what everyone wants to read, but I like the reality posts. I like reading about things and going yes, that is what I am going through and knowing I’m not alone. And I totally feel you on the mom guilt thing about my kids health I just took my seven year old to get tubes in his ears. When the ENT examined him the first time the dr said oh yeah he has fluid in there and its been there for a while. It was an instant how did I not know that. But the tubes are working great and he can hear again.
Exactly! It’s so, so easy to question ourselves and doubt ourselves as mothers. I’m so glad your son is doing well! And YOU are doing a great job. <3
Awesome post! It is refreshing to see real life that we all go through yet think we are the only one. Keep sharing because it lets everyone see we are all in this together, doing the best we can, day in and day out. Thank you for keeping it authentic.
I firmly believe that we should never apologize for how we feel – we feel that way for a reason! Yes – we can always compare ourselves to people who have it “worse” but that doesn’t mean we can’t feel the way we do.
Thank you for being raw – open and honest. Today is a new day!
Hoping your little one feels better soon! We had a 102 fever while I was away this weekend – talk about mom guilt.
I am GLAD you decided to be real and share this on your blog. You are right, most of life IS a lot of “middle ground.”
This post encourages me to be more empathetic today, as we are ALL experienceing every day up and downs….
Thank you.
THANK YOU! You’ve had put this into words so perfectly. There are just times when you need to recognize that things are hard. It reminds me of an article I read to my yoga class last week, that the key to happiness is accepting that there will be negative emotions..and not trying to push them away with all that *it could be worse* talk. This might be of interest to you! I found this article very powerful. https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/the-athletes-way/201708/is-accepting-unpleasant-emotions-the-secret-happiness
Thank you for writing this post! I have felt this way so many times and even found myself hesitating to share with friends in person if I know their situation is harder. That’s how life is meant to be lived though – together, in community, bearing one another’s burdens. I think if we aren’t real, too many of “those days” can somehow convince us we don’t have a right to communicate and share and be with one another, which is such a lie. I loved this post and your vulnerability, and in the midst of having several of “those days” this week, I felt refreshed and encouraged so thank you!!
Thank you for this post! It’s nice to not feel alone in having those types of days. I struggle through a lot of those same things on a regular basis and feel ridiculous for it which makes it worse. I have read your blog for years and never commented, but I appreciate you choosing to share with us the highs and lows and even the mundane lows as they are still very relevant.
Thank you for being so open. Sometimes when I read blogs it makes me feel like my life is always one of those days.. like I’m not interesting enough or doing enough when in reality I am. A lot of times I feel saddened that I work full time outside of the home and don’t get to see my kids nearly enough as I should. So mom guilt takes us every where and it does take certain things to put everything into perspective that you are doing enough or are good enough. I’m thankful that I can give everything and every ounce of my heart to my sons. That’s what brings it all back in that I will love them to my last breath. That’s enough for me.
SO feeling this lately. I had a particularly bad, “shouldn’t be bad, but it was” day last week, too. In fact, my whole week has been that way. I’ve been wanting to post, but it’s been so long since I’ve had a “personal” post on my blog, I feel like I’m in a weird place there! I think that even when it’s “little” stuff that adds up we’re allowed to feel upset about it. Just because our day isn’t as hard as the people in Houston or FL doesn’t mean our day isn’t hard. Yes, we have a lot of things to be thankful for, but life is still life and sometimes those little things can just chip away at your armor. I’m from FL, living in OH, and it was very hard with my entire family being in FL going through that Hurricane. The darn thing changed directions and the eye ended up going directly over them. Thankfully they’re okay and they’ll deal with whatever damage has occurred, but it’s hard being away from them during times like that. Add in 2 hormonal pre-teens/teens, a cat that has now decided to keep pooping all over our house & just daily life & things add up! I hope that things get to the good side of “normal” for you soon. And believe me, it’s okay to tell us about those kinds of days!
I am so glad you shared this. I read an article the other day that said one of the things most people do not do is let ourselves feel crummy. I believe that if we feel all the feels we can work it out. Sometimes allowing yourself to just be open with your good and bad thoughts is healthy. I feel like I’ve been struggling a lot lately with the petty things that could be so much worse. But, we are all human and we are allowed to feel all the things. Thanks for sharing good and bad days with us!!!!
Julie, I really appreciate the candor with which you share your life with us. I recognize it can be so hard to open yourself up to criticism from others but know that your sharing resonates with so many people. I share your feelings of having “those days” and totally get that not only can it be difficult to share but even more difficult to understand yourself with everything going on in the world. Know you are not alone in those feelings and that they too will pass. I hope your Tuesday is brighter!
Me too! Yesterday I forgot to feed the dog before I left for work, missed a work deadline, ran late for my son’s swim lessons, argued with my mom, and then accidentally fell asleep before my out-of-town husband called to say goodnight/chat for a minute…Ugh!
Thank you for sharing your day, no matter how individually small the struggles might seem from another perspective. I’m not sure there’s anything more disheartening than when you just need to vent about a struggle and the person you’re sharing with responds with a guilt trip.
It just happens, lots of little things add up, then something ELSE happens, and you just want to crawl back to bed and start the day over. And also not be the adult in charge, for just a bit 🙂
Here’s hoping none of us have one of “those” days today!
One of my favorite posts! Thanks for sharing and being a “real” person! We should all do it more.
Yes!! This was so refreshing to read. I often have to remind myself that nobody’s life is Instagram picture perfect, and I love you and your honesty so much!! xoxo
I have to say I really appreciate this honesty. I have a toddler (like Chase, two in July) and work part-time from home during naps etc. so I see a lot of parallels to my own life, and I can relate to this. I’d almost rather read/hear this stuff than read when it all goes as expected!
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I never comment but this post really touched a nerve. I really struggle with many of the same things. There is a Muhammad Ali quote that says it’s not the mountains we have to climb, it’s the rock in our shoe. And I think about that when the little things go “wrong”. Like this morning when I notice my brand new stainless steel fridge has a tiny dent in it. But that imperfection hits a part of me I guess … that struggle to deal with these rocks in my shoes that come up from time to time. Lately there have been a lot of them – or maybe my feet are just more sensitive, it’s hard to know. And I agree about others suffering being worse and feeling like my feeling bad doesn’t deserve attention because of that. And because my son is healthy and my husband and I have a roof over our heads and food in that dented fridge and jobs then I am only supposed to feel gratitude. Which of course only makes me feel worse for being bothered by these little things. On this dreary day just want you to know I appreciate your candor and there is another sensitive soul over here in Nashville.
Thank you thank you thank you! I often feel guilty as a mom for having THOSE days and so appreciate knowing that it’s not only me 🙂 As a longtime reader, I’m thinking of you and sending hugs xoxox
First, I hope Chase feels better! It’s the worst seeing your baby sick and feeling like you can’t fix it. But I greatly appreciate how refreshing this post is. You definitely want to remember life is not bad in comparison to some truly awful things. But it is also okay to acknowledge your day wasn’t great and remind the rest of us that we aren’t alone. I spent yesterday with my emotions everywhere. My 6.5 week pregnancy was confirmed when I was afraid something was wrong. I was genuinely afraid of what the ultrasound would show so I could not believe he/she was the right size with a beautiful heartbeat. But then mom, work, and life guilt set in – will my 17 month old understand how much I love him and want to play with him even though nausea currently has me miserable? Will my coworkers hate me for the fact my residency schedule will have to be rearranged therefore forcing some of them to change their schedules too? Will my husband resent my job when having to now take care of two kids on the weekend days I’m forced to work? Will our already tighter budget (thanks to a new house) handle the extra strain? But then I reminded myself that this was a baby I prayed for and I recalled your pain that you so beautifully shared with us and many friends who have had miscarriages. I felt incredibly selfish having these worries. Yesterday was a GOOD day but I think it is okay to have “those” feelings even if it wasn’t one of “those” days per se. Life is hard. Just be open with yourself and remind yourself for every hard thing there are even more wonderful things.
I have a two year old as well just a few days younger than Chase (who is currently watching Moana songs on YouTube while I type this – cue mom guilt). Thank you for this great post. This is real, day-to-day life – sometimes we feel like we’re rocking it and sometimes it’s more of an uphill climb. I love your blog and so enjoy reading about your journey as a fellow toddler mama! 🙂
Thank you for sharing!! Real life happens and it’s not always fun or easy. We all have “those” days or sometimes weeks. Hopefully you can take yesterday and turn it into something better today. My theory after one of “those” days is that today is a new day, new start, new beginning. Yesterday is long gone and hopefully so are those feelings. I hope you have a better next few days and I hope Chase starts feeling better soon! <3
Girl. I feel you. Of COURSE, I’m thankful everyone is ok in FL and Houston and Portland (wildfires out west) and feel terrible for those who aren’t. OF COURSE , I’m happy to have a good house , reliable car and a healthy family. BUT- does that mean that my life is peaches and rainbows all the time . No. I show up at the wrong time for my kid’s curriculum night. I field a bunch of passive aggressive emails from people who think what I’m doing isn’t good enough AS A VOLUNTEER AT A SCHOOL. My kid is irritated I don’t have “good food” to eat for lunch and she’s (in the whiniest voice possible ) “so tired of the same old thing.” …followed by a dramatic sigh. Sometimes a bunch of little stuff just drains you. And we need to get our bucket filled (so to speak) now and then. Good luck mama!
THANK YOU FOR KEEPING IT REAL!!!! I couldn’t agree more about what you said with how things are portrayed on social media these days; it definitely makes you wonder if you’re the only one having “those days”. I’m sorry you had a rough one yesterday mama, and I’m hoping today is a bit easier! Again, thank you SO much for sharing real/raw everyday life – it is so refreshing and makes the rest of us feel a bit more normal too 😉 ps- you’re doing an amazing job, hang in there!
I like this version of you so much better than the always happy, every day perfect image. Sorry you had a rough day, but it’s so real, and relatable.
Love this. Everything isn’t always wonderful, great, awesome. Real life sucks sometimes, and the blog world, social media, etc often leave the not so great parts out. Thank you.
We all live our own lives, with ups and downs, and they are real, and personal and affect *us*. It does not make sense to do a comparison game like “I should feel happier because those people have it worse, they have real problems.” I find, we can all have our problems at varying degrees, they are all valid. It’s not a competition. But we can have empathy for each other, nevertheless, and respect each others trials and tribulations, at all shapes and sizes.
Hi Julie, thank you for your brutal honesty that makes all of your readers realize that you, like them, do not have perfect story-book lives and that sometimes, many times, life is hard like this. I am so happy that you are making time for God though, His words give me the greatest peace and I think He is the only way that we can make it through not just the really good and really bad days, but the mundane and “just okay” days as well.
Also, I was considering giving up reading my couple of blogs that I follow because, while I loved reading them, I felt like I was just not living up to other people’s lives because their posts and the content just seemed flawless. I was hesitant to do this because reading them is something I look forward to, but I didn’t want to be comparing myself and feeling like I just could never be that awesome at life. I still haven’t made my mind up about this but thank you so much for sharing the average days. I enjoyed reading this because I felt closer to you as an imperfect person, just like me.
Thank you! I love that you do share it “all”. So many times after looking at social media I feel like wow what am I missing but as you say most are of the good times not the real times. I have been following your blog for many years and I love how you share it all! Thank you for keeping things real.
Hi Julie –
My 2 cents is to post whatever you want to! This is your blog, and we as readers come here to hear from you, whatever it is you have to say. I personally feel that it is refreshing to see posts like this sometimes as it makes you seem human and relatable. I am expecting my first child and, as you mentioned with regards to social media, it can be hard when the blogs you read always always look like the blogger is the best mom, wife, person etc. and it makes you wonder how you will ever be as good. I appreciate the peeks into ‘real’ days because it give a more balanced perspective. So, for example, if I’m trying to parent and am having one of those days, I can shift from thinking ‘why can’t I do this, Julie is always doing it right?!’ to ‘I can do this, even Julie has tough days!’ 🙂 Which is to say, you’re a great Mom, and part of that is accepting that momming comes with struggles – something I’m sure I will have to work on remembering as well.
I always like the ‘day in the life’ type posts, even when the day looks like this!
As your shirt says, mommin’ ain’t easy. Thanks for sharing. My days feel like this a lot lately. My 2YO and 4YO only know how to communicate via whining and it’s exhausting. Keep your head up. It always gets better.
Oh Julie. This is SO “IT”. As a fellow Mom I totally relate. Like they say “This parenthood thing is no freaking joke”. And seriously … it’s the hardest, best, sometimes worst, exhausting, amazing thing ever. My girlfriends and I always say ….. “LOVING your child doesn’t always mean you love PARENTING your child.” And I think that goes for all things in life. Basically LOVING your life and all your blessings doesn’t mean that going through the grind of the day to day is always something to be loved. Thanks for sharing. I love knowing others are out there!
Julie, I’ve been reading your blog for years on a daily basis and absolutely love it! I have been reading “Grace, Not Perfection” and it talks about these exact moments that we are ALLOWED to have! Too often we get caught up on social media and what looks perfect, but in reality, it is a small glimpse into the other 23.5 hours in our day. I am just as guilty of that! Thank you for being honest and vulnerable and showing you are “real” like the rest of us! You are an amazing blogger! 🙂
I think many bloggers think that writing about day to day negative or unpleasant experiences comes across as whiny, but it doesn’t read that way to me. There is a clear difference between expressing thoughts and emotions that occur regularly versus constant complaining. I truly appreciate when “healthy living” bloggers share experiences good, bad, and in between because it feels REAL and resonates so much more. Reading a perky, fluffed up version of someones life is actually off-putting because it eventually feels contrived (and makes me question my own daily struggles). I will ALWAYS appreciate a blog that is a real expression of life experiences while also understanding that a blogger can choose not to share any/all of the details of their life. Thanks for keeping it real…that’s what keeps me coming back 🙂
This was a great post, Julie; thank you. I think there’s value in letting yourself have on of THOSE days. You would never minimize a good day by thinking, “This was a good day, but it could have been better,” so don’t minimize a bad day by thinking, “This could be worse.” I read somewhere once that you should treat yourself the way you treat your best friend, so when you’re having one of those days, try to be extra kind to yourself, not make yourself feel guilty and worse. I think the vast majority of your readers appreciate your honesty (and it does come across as honesty, not whining, I promise); I certainly do!
Yes, yes, yes. I’ve been struggling lately but don’t want to “complain” with so much going on in the world. But sometimes we get overwhelmed. Sometimes things go wrong. Sometimes things go wrong: that’s lif. Thanks for sharing today, I needed it too!
I had one of “those” days yesterday too, must have been a Monday thing! Seriously you are so right, you feel like a complainer over little things that really just wear you down throughout the day, but make it hard for you to be real with people because there are SUCH bigger issues that people deal with. But I think more people can relate to this, and don’t feel guilty for having a “day.” Thanks for sharing!!
I was thinking of you yesterday when I read you had a doctor appointment, even just for a blood draw, I know how truly emotional I sometimes feel at the doctor and my heart goes out to you. I am absolutely the patient that cries over everything and I think you are dealing with some heavy stuff right now. Go easy on yourself – you are balancing so much with motherhood AND running a blog AND dealing with the challenges life is throwing at you. Big hugs from the internet. 🙂
thanks for being real. the good days outweigh the bad but the bad days feel so long. i am struggling to learn this as well with my first kid, a 1.5 year old. before this, i thought life was easy!
We all have “those” days. Thank you for sharing. I hope today goes better for you and that Chase starts to feel better. Also that needle experience sounds awful. I probably would have been in tears myself.
I LOVE THIS POST!! Lately I’ve felt like every day is “one of those days”. It’s comforting to know that not everyone has it “put together”. I usually look at people who seem that way and my question is always…”What am I doing WRONG? Why can’t I stay on top of everything like they can?” It makes you more real to know, hey, you have your good days and your bad days. Not every day is “awesome”
Everything you just said is so important. I relate to this so deeply – sometimes even just in regards to my thoughts, not related to blogging. When I have one of “those” days, I feel so guilty for being in such a terrible mood because like you said, so many people have it so much worse than I do. But I think it is really necessary to acknowledge those feelings of guilt so we can determine exactly where they are coming from and work to correct the problem from the source. So thank you so much for writing this, bringing this to light, and sharing your life every day. And I am really sorry you had the day you did yesterday – they’re no fun, and I really hope today is better. <3
I am reading your post and nodding along and commiserating! I started a new job in a new town in a new state a few months ago, and I love it so much but there have been so many challenges that come with uprooting and moving your life. Little things like you talked about that just feel like they’re just chipping away at my sanity. I just keep reminding myself, some days are great. Others are not. We’re all just doing the best we can, day by day. But those days, just getting through them is a success, even if it doesn’t feel like it! Keep your chin up, tomorrow is a new day 🙂 And THANK YOU for sharing.
I loved reading this because it’s real life. There are so many times during the day where I am just overwhelmed by the sheer amount of things I need to do with absolutely no time to do it. Then comes the guilt for worrying about doing all the things when I could just be spending time with my kids. Then comes the guilt for asking my mom for help when I should have it all together. We are all just hot messes, girl. I’m glad you shared your off day – it will make me feel a little better today knowing I’m not the only one who doesn’t always have my shit together. Xoxo
Love this post! ? Thank you for sharing!
Thank you so much for sharing one of “those days”. I think it’s completely natural to feel down even if you know that it could be worse and others are experiencing worse — but that doesn’t mean you don’t have the license to feel the way to feel. Perspective is so important but it’s also important to allow yourself to process your emotions. You seem to do a great job of that! I find it so responsible and commendable of you to share “those days” because it shows others than you’re human and even though it’s not your responsibility to safeguard others feelings, you are helping others feel comfortable with their regular lives and regular emotions. Keep being you!
Thank you for being honest. Life is not easy. Being a Mom is DEFINATELY not easy. You can’t be all rainbows and sunshine every day to everyone. It’s actually normal! And if everything was perfect….we would spend our time worrying when the other shoe was going to drop. Life happens…and your added concerns and worries about the blood work has you on edge. I am sure that Ryan is completely understanding that you may have mood swings. I am sure you feel better after unloading your feelings. Today is a new day! And I hope its a nothing-exciting-happened-but-it-was-just-a-great-day Day! =)
All I can say as I sit here teary-eyed is THANK YOU for this post and your honesty. It’s like you looked into my mind and wrote out just about everything I was feeling yesterday (and others, of course, because you know – LIFE). It’s in those moments, when I’m feeling the mom guilt HARD, or have no patience left, or just want to run away screaming, that I remind myself of something that was on a card I got from my mother years ago when we were going through fertility treatment: be gentle with yourself. Your feelings/my feelings/our feelings need to be handled with as much care as we handle those of our loved ones. We’re human, too.
Thank you for your honesty, and I hope today is better for you!