We hoped to receive answers to some unknowns on Friday and unfortunately we are still waiting. While I am not ready to share a lot of details in this space just yet, I do want to fill you guys in a little bit because I am so grateful for your thoughts and prayers.
A little more than a week ago, during Chase’s one year pediatric visit, we had some precautionary blood work done. Though Chase’s pediatrician has always assured us that Chase looks great and is growing well “on his own little curve,” I’ve undoubtedly let myself stress out over his small size since the moment he was born. Chase’s doctor recommended a few additional blood tests during his visit to rule out any major issues.
Early last week, I spoke with a nurse who told me that one of Chase’s blood tests (ironically not related to his small size) came back a little concerning. I’ve felt stressed out and concerned over a myriad of things related to our baby boy since he was born but speaking with the nurse about a concerning blood test was the first time I felt truly scared.
I couldn’t stop the tears and within an hour, we were back at the pediatrician’s office on Tuesday to meet with our doctor and undergo some follow up blood tests.
And that is where we are right now. Waiting.
Waiting and praying and believing in the good.
Friday was a tough day because I was told that we’d likely receive the results from Chase’s follow up blood work “by Friday at the latest.” I obsessively checked my phone and eventually, at 4 p.m., I spoke with a nurse who told me she reached out to the lab who explained that one of Chase’s tests was more involved and results would likely not be available until Monday or Tuesday. While I was disappointed to hear this, I also felt myself exhale as I realized I let myself get in my head and worry about the reasons why it was taking so long to get Chase’s results back.
The waiting is hard. The unknown is harder. But I know in my heart we are waiting on GOOD news. I believe this with all that I am. When I picture the phone call from our pediatrician’s office, I imagine myself receiving only good news.
I am taking my cues from Chase. He is strong, energetic, joyful and happy and I should be too. I look at my baby boy and see what I already know in my heart is true: He is fine. He will be fine.
I just want those darn blood tests to confirm it.
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From one new momma to another, big hugs. Sending all of our positive thoughts- he will be more than fine. I know I don’t know you- but I’m thinking of you. The unknown is never easy when it concerns a piece of your heart. xoxo
I teared up just reading your post, Krissy. So true about these babies being a piece of our heart. Like a big piece. I am a new Mama too so I can’t imagine what you are going through but I am thinking of you all and sending positive thoughts and prayers! Hope you hear back soon with great news. Keep your head up, Mama!
Thinking of you and Chase, Julie! <3 Like you said, he is happy and strong and energetic. I'm sure if everything will be fine!! We're so lucky to live in a place with awesome medical professionals 🙂
Prayers!! God is so good and always has the right plan. Trust in him and thank him everyday for your abundant blessings which I know you do! Everything will turn out fine!! I like the saying “God gives his toughest battles to his strongest warriors.”
I believe what Whitney said with my whole heart.
I don’t have the blessing of children yet, but my love for my nine wonderful nieces and nephews only assures me that the love a parent feels for a child is more over-powering than anything in the world. Sending good thoughts and prayers to you and the family.
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I’m so sorry to hear this, Julie. It made me break down in tears to read this just to imagine the anxiety as a parent. BUT as a healthcare practitioner there are so so many times a blood specimen gets hemolyzed in the lab which alter results. Also quite often labs come back as slightly “off” and they do a thorough check for the sake of completeness. So I have all the faith in the world that everything is great and Chase is the active, healthy, thriving little boy we all see. I am praying so hard for you and your family and your beautiful son. He is doing wonderful.
I came here to say the exact same thing. As a nurse I’m all too familiar with how inaccurate lab results can be on the first try. It’s scary and nerve racking, but your positive intuition is a very powerful and fingers crossed very accurate thing
I’m a medical laboratory scientist. Most of the time, labs are hemolyzed at time of draw (ex drawing from an IV start, pulling back too hard on a syringe while drawing, pushing the blood too hard into the tube etc) not in the lab. A good sample yields accurate results. It can certainly be hard to get a great sample on a wiggly little one with tiny veins though! The lab requires endless maintenance, QC, calibrations, validations, proficiency tests, etc to stay open. Some tests are more useful than others though- for example an elevated Sed Rate indicates inflammation or infection somewhere and other tests tell where.
Try not to worry too much! I’ll be thinking of you and your family.
Sarah, you made my day as a fellow lab tech. We do not hemolyze your specimens, it just makes our jobs harder when we get them that way.
Julie- I’m not sure what testing you’re having done/ the size of your hospital, but many tests are sent out to a reference laboratory for analysis. Those labs function on a schedule that might only include processing a specific test once or twice a week, causing time delays that are irritating and nerve wracking, but in no way indicative of the final result. You are doing the right thing by having testing done, as quality lab results are often so important in ruling out diagnoses or planning treatment. Hang in there.
I can’t say anything more than everyone has already said, but I wanted you to know you have one more person sending you good thoughts.
Praying for you 3! So sorry you had to wait even longer over the weekend. Hopefully you guys will find out the results today or tomorrow and be guided in the right direction for the next steps to take care of Chase. He is so lucky to have such loving and caring parents.
It will be okay. Just breathe. Before you know it, you’ll be writing about this little blip in Chase’s baby book and it will be in the past. Sending lots of good vibes your way. *hugs!*
Thank you for sharing. Sending prayers to you and your family.
Sending you lots of positive vibes today and all week Julie! I hope you receive some good news early today so your anxiety can go away. I don’t think as parent there could be anything worse than waiting on a test result or wanting to be sure everything is okay with your child. Be strong and enjoy that little ball of energy and laughs that is your baby boy. Hope you seek comfort in knowing a lot of people are thinking about you and praying for your family regardless if we’ve ever met you before. Stay strong sweetie!
We’re all thinking of & rooting for you!
Oh, Julie. I’m so sorry that you’ve had to go through this. I will be praying for your family and look forward to hearing the good news that all is well with that beautiful, joyful little boy of yours!
Being a first time mom myself I can relate with you about worrying over everything with our precious little ones. Being a parent is tough and I can only imagine what you are feeling right now. Prayers of good news and strength for you and your beautiful family!!
Thinking of you and your family as you wait for the results and I pray it’s nothing but good news! Our son’s platelet counts were high at the 12 month, high again when retested last week (granted he had a cold both times), but have to go back and test again. I’m familiar with the waiting and know how much it can pull at your heart! We also feel deep down that everything is ok, but not worrying is easier said than done as a parent. Do exactly what you are doing…rely on Ryan as your rock and Chase as your source of energy. After all, once these babies are mobile, we have no choice but to “just keep swimming”! You are one strong mama! Prayers for you guys this week!
Aw I’m so sorry Julie, waiting for results of any test is definitely the hardest part. Sending you all my love, thoughts, and prayers for results that are only good news! <3
Sending love and prayers to you and your family. <3
Sending lots of hugs your way. You are an amazing mama.
As a momma too I welled up reading this post. My thoughts and positive prayers are with you all. Hopefully good news soon. Xoxo
Oh julie. Sweetheart. My little boy is 3 days younger than Chase so i can only imagine how worried you feel. I wait with you. Bonded by motherhood and all the challenges it unexpectedly throws at you. All my love from my little family to yours. Xxxxxxxxxxxxx
Our babies are our entire lives so you have every right to feel everything you are feeling. Stay positive and focus on all the good and let your family, friends, and blog followers lift you up. We all know Chase is fine and will be fine but in the meantime we will pray that the positive news come to you quickly so you can put your mind to rest.
Sending so many prayers and good vibes to you and your family!!! Baby Chase is ADORABLE and by everything you write about how joyful, outgoing, and energetic he is should tell you how he is a healthy little man! So many blood tests come back a little “off” until they are confirmed more to be normal. You seem like you have such a great motherly instinct and know Chase is fine. I am sure you will receive only positive news!! 🙂
I’m not a person of faith, but I’m sending your family positivity and love!
So many powerful prayers coming your way! Chase seems to be such a normal perfect energetic little guy and while I totally get the worry(I know I would be a wreck), I am sure he is going to be fine! God is good! Stay positive momma!
I am so sad to hear that this is something you have to go through. I read this post as I am nursing my almost 1 year old. I just can’t even imagine what you’re going through.
You are strong and I’m sure your family is amazingly supportive. I hope you get relief from the waiting soon with good news!
Sending you positive vibes today! Waiting is so hard. I hope you guys get your answers soon.
Sending lots of positive thoughts your way. Xx
Sending positive vibes to you, your family, and your beautiful baby boy.
The waiting truly is the hardest part. I’ve prayed that whatever you were going through would turn out okay and I have to believe it will be. Sending love and strength to you all as you wait to hear the good news!
Sending you so many thoughts, prayers and well wishes. Chase will be fine, he will be great. He has loving parents that will do anything for him. He is a lucky boy. Hang in there. You have a big community pulling for your family.
Praying for you! I hope that you receive good news today. Anytime anything is a little bit off with my baby, I get very worried and anxious, so I can imagine that you must be feeling scared right now!
Sending love and big hugs to you guys – – my eyes are swimming with tears reading this. I saw a huge display of sunflowers this weekend and thought of you and sent you many happy thoughts! <3
Praying that all comes out well.
I have been a long time reader but rarely comment and feel like others as I know you as a friend. As a mother as well the emotion that comes over me just reading this is overwhelming. I send you all the prayers and well wishes from my family to yours. I too had a blood test come out concerning but in the end turned out to be nothing. Stay on the path of positivity and know this will make you a stronger person in the end.
Sending you love and hugs. xoxo
Praying for your family this week.
I can not even imagine how scary this is for you and Ryan. The waiting must feel eternal. I have been praying and thinking good thoughts for your family all weekend. I hope you get good news shortly!
thinking good thoughts for you guys.
Sending you all lots of love, hugs, and kisses! I totally left my favorite beach towel, so maybe I just need to drive back and snuggle some more and grab my towel. 😉 And maybe go eat some delicious cheese. xoxoxo!
Julie we’re thinking of you. Thank you for sharing what must be a hard phone call to wait for.
Waiting on blood tests is the worst. I hope you get answers soon, friend. Thanks for sharing, and sending so many good thoughts your way ?
Not a field or flower escapes His notice! <3 Praying for you, for some peace of mind and good news. The unknown is so hard.
This song has brought me comfort in times of worry, maybe it will for you too:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wRJZQFRyZ6s
sending big hugs and positive thoughts your way! Look at that amazing energetic little boy you have and know everything will be fine!
Sending lots of love, hugs, good vibes and positive thoughts to you! Your family is strong and will get through this together! xx
Long time reader, first time commenter. Sending you and your family lots of positive thoughts during this difficult time. Don’t forget to do self care so you can manage all the stress. We are all rooting for a positive outcome!
Thinking of you and your family Julie and sending positive vibes your way!
Julie–wishing you and your family good vibes and thinking of you!!!
Prayed for you this morning and will continue to do so! I’m so sorry you’re waiting, that is so, so tough. Your outlook is truly inspiring — sending positive prayers and thoughts your way!
I am thinking of you and your family during this difficult time. Like you and others have expressed, I have been a Long time blog reader and I do consider you a friend whose posts I look forward reading each day. As my mom would say, keep your chin up and everything will turn out ok in the end.
xoxo
Waiting is the worst! Praying for you all and trusting that God is taking care of all the details seen and unseen! And hoping you get results real soon!
Continuing to lift your family in prayer.
Sending prayers to your family and hoping for good news coming your way. <3