We hoped to receive answers to some unknowns on Friday and unfortunately we are still waiting. While I am not ready to share a lot of details in this space just yet, I do want to fill you guys in a little bit because I am so grateful for your thoughts and prayers.
A little more than a week ago, during Chase’s one year pediatric visit, we had some precautionary blood work done. Though Chase’s pediatrician has always assured us that Chase looks great and is growing well “on his own little curve,” I’ve undoubtedly let myself stress out over his small size since the moment he was born. Chase’s doctor recommended a few additional blood tests during his visit to rule out any major issues.
Early last week, I spoke with a nurse who told me that one of Chase’s blood tests (ironically not related to his small size) came back a little concerning. I’ve felt stressed out and concerned over a myriad of things related to our baby boy since he was born but speaking with the nurse about a concerning blood test was the first time I felt truly scared.
I couldn’t stop the tears and within an hour, we were back at the pediatrician’s office on Tuesday to meet with our doctor and undergo some follow up blood tests.
And that is where we are right now. Waiting.
Waiting and praying and believing in the good.
Friday was a tough day because I was told that we’d likely receive the results from Chase’s follow up blood work “by Friday at the latest.” I obsessively checked my phone and eventually, at 4 p.m., I spoke with a nurse who told me she reached out to the lab who explained that one of Chase’s tests was more involved and results would likely not be available until Monday or Tuesday. While I was disappointed to hear this, I also felt myself exhale as I realized I let myself get in my head and worry about the reasons why it was taking so long to get Chase’s results back.
The waiting is hard. The unknown is harder. But I know in my heart we are waiting on GOOD news. I believe this with all that I am. When I picture the phone call from our pediatrician’s office, I imagine myself receiving only good news.
I am taking my cues from Chase. He is strong, energetic, joyful and happy and I should be too. I look at my baby boy and see what I already know in my heart is true: He is fine. He will be fine.
I just want those darn blood tests to confirm it.
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Thank you for opening up you heart and talking about your fears, Julie. Sending up prayers from College Station, TX. May you guys get answers SOON. Much love!
I am going to hope this turns out to be nothing, or something really easy to treat.
In the meantime, hit me up for cat or puppy pics.
Keep visualizing that GOOD phone call you will receive to day or tomorrow. I’ll be thinking of you, today! Let Chase’s smiles momentarily take away the worries today.
I agree, Crystal! Visualization is so powerful..use it for amazing good news!
Sending you prayers of comfort and strength as you wait…and of course, prayers for good news regarding Chase’s bloodwood results. As a fellow mom, I can understand how you must be consumed with worry while waiting to hear back from the pediatrician’s office. As I read your post, my eyes welled up with tears just knowing what you must be going through. Every minute must seem like an eternity. I hope you receive that reassurance and relief today…hang in there!
Waiting is the worst! It’s crazy how much you can worry about another person. Just keep thinking positive thoughts and it will all work out.
Julie I’m so sorry! I hope you receive good news TODAY! My daughter is about 7 weeks older than Chase, and I don’t think I properly understood the meaning of worry or stress until she was born.
Waiting for test results can be so hard. It’s never easy. You and your family are in my thoughts.
Oh Julie! Thinking of you and Chase. Praying for great news.
Thinking and praying for you and your family! As well as sending lots of well wishes for Little Chase too! Waiting for results can be sooo stressful but stay positive!
Julie-
Sending you a big internet hug from one mama to another. When we are worried about something with one of our babies it’s all consuming. Everything else fades away and we realize just how very unimportant the trivial things are. Joining you in believing and praying for nothing but perfect results.
Xo
Oh, Julie! I’m so sorry! My heart broke for you reading this post, BUT i agree with you in that I think Chase is totally fine! I can tell by photos he is thriving & has so much energy. I know our babies are our whole world & worrying about them for even a day can feel like it takes away years off our life. Praying you get good news early today so you can exhale & enjoy your week without a cloud of worry over your head.
I believe in the “Momma gut” more than any other intuition out there. I will pray for you and your family, but I have a feeling your instincts are correct! Chase is going to be just fine. All my love and prayers.
thinking about all of you guys! Saying an extra prayer today! I’m sure everything will come back great 🙂
I’m so sorry that this has been such a long and stressful wait! I’m keeping all my fingers crossed that this is nothing- and you said it youself, Chase is happy and energetic. Thank you for sharing, and I’m keeping your little family in my thoughts!!
Oh my gosh! I don’t think there is anything scarier in the world than the fear of something happening to our children. I will be keeping good thoughts for you and your family until we get the good news that everything is fine.
Thoughts and prayers for you and your little family. I hope you get (good) results today to end the agony of waiting! This quote speaks to me the love we have for our kids, and how hard it is to think something might be wrong-
Making the decision to have a child – it is momentous. It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body.
Elizabeth Stone
I hope you get good news about your heart! ❤️
All of my thoughts, prayers and positive vibes are headed your way, lady. From one Mama of a little to another, I can’t imagine what you’re going through, BUT I do have faith that you are going to receive the best possible news shortly! <3
Sending positive and GOOD thoughts to Chase and your family!
Praying for you that God is in control and will work things out for the good for you and your beautiful family. <3
I agree with the other nurses who have said that lab results can come back wrong for SO many reasons! We have patients referred to the ER all the time for abnormal lab values and they’re totally fine. With that said, I would still be just as nervous as you. There is just no way NOT to worry about your child. I think every parent’s biggest fear is something being wrong with or happening to their child. You’re in my thoughts and I hope everything comes back okay!
Echo’ing some of the above comments that lab tests are not always accurate the first go around, and I’m sure the medical team is doing everything they can to analyze it correctly. My thoughts and prayers to you, Ryan and Chase – he is happy, joyful and energetic. Praying for good news!
thinking of you and your family, Julie! sometimes the worst part of anything medical is the worrying and waiting (especially for someone like me with a lot of anxiety!) my grandma likes to remind me that more often than not the things we spend time worrying about never come true. I hope Chase’s tests come back with only good news <3
Hi Julie! I’ve read your blog for a while and never commented, but just wanted to share a quick (hopefully heartening!) story. I don’t know the details very well but apparently when I a toddler, my white blood cells stopped reproducing (or something? The white blood cell count was ridiculously low). My parents had to take me to a bunch of different cancer/leukemia clinics and were terrified for several months. Then one day I was just fine again, and have been ever since! Still no idea what happened.
Keep your head up and stay as optimistic as possible. Thinking about you!
Prayers for Chase and your family! It’s so amazing that my heart can feel so much for this precious boy I’ve never gotten to meet in person. It’s been a joy to see him grow and change over the past year. I’m looking forward to good news soon!
Xoxo
I am praying that everything is okay!
Praying for you and your family <3 Children are the greatest blessings and I pray that everything is okay with your sweet baby Chase!
Oh, Julie, I’m so sorry you’re going through this! My heart hurts for you. Chase is one lucky little guy to have you as his mama. I’m so confident everything is going to be just fine. Sending lots of prayers and love from Waco, TX!
Waiting is the worst! Sending positive thoughts to you and your family. All will be well.
Sending positive thoughts to you and your family and am hopeful that you will hear good news soon!
Sending you so many happy thoughts and prayers. Hoping you hear the good news today. As a new mom, I cannot imagine what you are going through! I remember hearing our baby could have something wrong with her hips and needed an x-ray and waiting for that and results felt like an eternity. Chase is SO happy and is growing, energetic, and a ball of happiness! He has such amazing parents and I know the good news will get here soon!
Just sent up a prayer! All will be well!!!
Just catching up on some blog posts from last week and today. In tears reading this. Not because I think that there is anything at all wrong with your sweet baby boy, but because as a mom of 3 I can absolutely relate to what must be running through your head right now. This is the part of parenting that no one is ever prepared for. Thinking of you, Ryan, and Chase during this awful waiting period, and praying everything comes back just fine so you can continue on being the best mama to your sweet boy. xo
Ay mama, im lifting Chase up in prayer and BELIEVING with you that EVERYTHING IS GOOD, he is healthy, he is strong, he will be ok! Im believing that with all my heart for you this morning. Our babes are less than two weeks apart and i cant imagine what all the waiting is doing to your mind, but remember thats just the enemy, and he wont win! Praying for distractions today and for time to fly and those results to come in quick! Im glad you have a great support system in place and know that all your readers are right there with ya, holding your hand thru it all. We love mr Chase and we all are believing he will be OK!
My youngest has gone through all of the crazy blood tests for small stature too. 3 rounds so far and we go back again in November. So tough on us as patents and our little guys! Hugs to you and prayers for happy news.
I wish I could give you a giant hug! I am praying for positive results. When my daughter was nine months old we had to go through an agonizing wait for some results. Hands down the scariest thing we’ve ever been through. Everything turned out fine. She is 23 now.??
Sending prayers and love and support your way. Your positive attitude is so inspiring and you’re right – take your cues from your adorable, energetic, sweet baby boy. All will be fine.
Aw Julie, I so feel your heart in this post. In my experience, if there was an issue you would have heard by now. It sounds like they’re still treating it as routine and cautionary even after receiving some “concerning” results. If they had truly been concerned, they would have expedited that blood work. At least I hope they would’ve. The waiting is terrible, isn’t it? Especially when it involves your baby. Chase is a beautiful, healthy baby boy and I know that you’ll receive good news. Sending lots of positive vibes your way! Be strong, momma 😉
Praying and sending positive thoughts your way. I can’t imagine how stressful it must be but keep your head up and stay positive. We’re all here with you and sending love your way!!
You’re amazing, Julie. Continued prayers for your sweet baby boy and your entire family as you wait for results! There will be good news. Stay strong.
Sending prayers and hugs … I am sure it is going to be good news.
On the other hand, my co-workers may be wondering why I ostensibly dropped something on the floor and while looking for it did a whole prayer on my knees for the little peanut who is lucky to have you and Ryan as parents.
Blessings, my love … we are always here for you!
Sending up prayers for you and your sweet baby!
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
I know the waiting and uncertainty are unbearably hard. But trust God — he’s got you and sweet little Chase right in the palm of his hand! Not a single moment passes without God’s knowledge. He is in complete control and is with your family every step of the way. Just give it to him. Over and over again. And know that we’re all praying with you for Chase’s health!
Ugh, as a new momma, this totally hits my heart. I worried throughout my pregnancy at every twinge and moment without a kick and thought, once he’s here I’ll stop worrying! Oh no, now I worry if he isn’t AHEAD of all the developmental milestones and growth charts. I just know that you’ll be getting that happy phone call so soon. Whatever you do- DON’T go down the black hole of worrying that is googling! Ha! So many positive thoughts coming your way momma!!
Sending prayers to you and your family, Julie. Everything will work out and in the meantime, keep lovin on Chase <3
I wish I could give you a hug! I am praying for positive results. When our daughter was nine months old we had to endure an agonizing wait for test results. Hands down the scariest time of our lives. Everything turned out fine. She is twenty three now!
Julie, I will keep praying for you and your sweet family! I hope everything turns out just fine! Chase sure seems to be one happy and healthy little boy, and you are a fantastic mom to him. Everything will work out. Thank you for sharing this with all of us, I know that is hard to do! God bless!
Our pediatrician always tell us that the first rule of pediatrics is, look at how the baby/child is acting and doing – that tells you more than any blood test or x-ray or whatever (I know that’s SO much harder to put into action though). As a mama who also worries obsessively over my 20 month old son – all I know is that no matter what, I love him with all of my heart, we have the resources to take care of whatever arises, and that no matter what, he’s the greatest thing in the world, no.matter.what. Waiting for blood test results is the most agonizing thing in the world. Sending love and strength to someone who seems like such a wonderful mama and for a baby who seems so blessed and loved.
Praying for peace for you and your sweet family. The Lord will protect you no matter the results, but praying for good results for your little boy!
Sending all the love and prayers your way <3
Waiting is the hardest part…. sending good thoughts, prayers and hugs.
xo