We hoped to receive answers to some unknowns on Friday and unfortunately we are still waiting. While I am not ready to share a lot of details in this space just yet, I do want to fill you guys in a little bit because I am so grateful for your thoughts and prayers.
A little more than a week ago, during Chase’s one year pediatric visit, we had some precautionary blood work done. Though Chase’s pediatrician has always assured us that Chase looks great and is growing well “on his own little curve,” I’ve undoubtedly let myself stress out over his small size since the moment he was born. Chase’s doctor recommended a few additional blood tests during his visit to rule out any major issues.
Early last week, I spoke with a nurse who told me that one of Chase’s blood tests (ironically not related to his small size) came back a little concerning. I’ve felt stressed out and concerned over a myriad of things related to our baby boy since he was born but speaking with the nurse about a concerning blood test was the first time I felt truly scared.
I couldn’t stop the tears and within an hour, we were back at the pediatrician’s office on Tuesday to meet with our doctor and undergo some follow up blood tests.
And that is where we are right now. Waiting.
Waiting and praying and believing in the good.
Friday was a tough day because I was told that we’d likely receive the results from Chase’s follow up blood work “by Friday at the latest.” I obsessively checked my phone and eventually, at 4 p.m., I spoke with a nurse who told me she reached out to the lab who explained that one of Chase’s tests was more involved and results would likely not be available until Monday or Tuesday. While I was disappointed to hear this, I also felt myself exhale as I realized I let myself get in my head and worry about the reasons why it was taking so long to get Chase’s results back.
The waiting is hard. The unknown is harder. But I know in my heart we are waiting on GOOD news. I believe this with all that I am. When I picture the phone call from our pediatrician’s office, I imagine myself receiving only good news.
I am taking my cues from Chase. He is strong, energetic, joyful and happy and I should be too. I look at my baby boy and see what I already know in my heart is true: He is fine. He will be fine.
I just want those darn blood tests to confirm it.
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Can’t stop thinking about your family. Sending lots of love.
Sending prayers and positive thoughts for you and your sweet little family. So sorry you are going through this.
I can imagine how you feel having a two month old now, they are so little and precious. Waiting is so hard….I am thinking of you and your family. Sending you only good things!
All the love. All the love.
So sorry you’re having to go through this! Sending positive thoughts and prayers your way for good news!!
Sending love and strength to you, Julie, and your family. Big hugs!
I can’t even imagine what you’re going through and the waiting game is not fun at all! Chase is the most adorable little boy and I am thinking about him and you and your family!
I’ve never really commented on your blog before, but I follow it and enjoy it tremendously. I have a 10 month old daughter and when I watch Chase and the updates you provide about him, it helps me to know what might be in store for my little one as she continues to grow. I’m so sorry to hear the news about Chase. I would be devastated waiting. You are approaching it from a place of strength and patience. I admire that. I’m sending good wishes to you, your husband, Chase, and Sadie. I’m keeping you in my thoughts.
I have been reading your blog for five years. Thinking of you and hoping for good news. I have been through some really difficult things in my life… know this…you and your family have the strength for this. with love. Kristen
Sending hope and prayers your way!
In THIS moment, right now, Chase is okay! And I think he will be in the future always. Prayers for you.
I will continue to pray for Chase and for your sweet family. Hoping for good news!
Big hugs from my mama heart to yours! Prayers for you and your family
Hi Julie!
I’ve been a long time reader of your blog and am truly sad to hear what you’ve been going through. I wish you get good news soon. I know waiting and not knowing is the hardest part but I believe everything will turn out fine. God is with you and your beautiful family. Sensing lots and lots of good vibes <3
Julie I always talk to my husband about your blog to the point that we now refer to you as “my BFF I’ve never met”. Thank you for sharing with us about Chase. I am pretty sure he has stolen a piece of ALL your readers hearts and I will be praying for happy news! Hang in there momma!!!
Oh wow! I definitely know how painful that waiting game can be. I am sending you nothing but good vibes! Keeping you and your precious baby boy in my thoughts and prayers!
Julie, sending love and prayers your way!! With your Joy for life and Ryan and your family as your rock these are recipes for Chase to have lots of good coming his way. And we are all behind you every step of the way. Glad you could share with us. All my love. Robyn @coffeechatgirl
Praying for you guys, Julie!
Praying for your family. My thoughts are with you in this time of worry. <3 Stay strong!
Praying for good results!
Oh Julie, I just teared up reading this! Thinking of you and your family! My family went through this with my nephew years ago and the waiting was absolutely awful. (He is doing great and had mono at the time of the very disturbing blood test.) I will be sending prayers to your adorable Chase!
I’ve never commented before but love your blog. Just in the last week I’ve started saying to my husband, “Julie likes this product” and “This is one of Julie’s recipes.” So I feel like I know you and your family and am sending many good thoughts and hugs your way!
Hi Julie,
I have been reading and enjoying your blog for years and have loved seeing your family grow. I am a Mom of two boys, a 2 year old and a 6 month old and love fitness and food, so your blog has been a daily source of happiness for me. I can completely relate to you as we are in similar stages of life with little ones. I felt compelled to write to you today because my heart is going out to you, and your family. Please know so many people love and support you and are praying for positive results. Thinking of you and sending lots of love your way.
Praying for you and your sweet babe!! One thing I do know about test results is that it’s usually a good thing that they don’t call you for a few days. When things are wrong, they usually want to let you know right away. When things are normal and not raising big red flags, they tend to let them wait a little longer. Proud of you that you’re staying so positive and hopeful even in such uncertainty, which I think is one of the worst feelings ever (because it allows your imagination to run wild). You’ve got so many prayers being sent up for Chase and for you, and I believe with all my heart God will keep him safe <3
Julie,
I have followed you since I was pregnant and learned that you were expecting as well! My son is only 4 months older but I’ve always been able to relate due to my son being on the small side too. There are times when people comment, but like Chase he is a heathy, entergetic young boy with his own curve chart too. I’ve been praying for you and your family and that all goes well with the results. Please know that you have touched a lot of people.
I’m so sorry you are going through this, Julie! As a long time reader I have enjoyed hearing about all of your family’s adventures and will keep you guys in my thoughts and prayers. It is so hard not to worry, but this verse always has helped me.
Be still, let go, and let god- Psalm 46:10
Keeping you and your family in my prayers, Julie! Hope all goes well <3
Wishing you and your beautiful family all the best! My son will be one on September 1st and I love reading about you and Chase! Sending you positive thoughts!
Praying for God’s presence to provide comfort and strength as you await results for your little Peanut. You are a lovely family.
Standing with you Julie in complete agreement for good news regarding your sweet son and beautiful boy.
Ever since little Chase was born I’ve felt connected to him — my son was born a little over 2 months after him, and we also named him Chase! Mine is a chunky monkey, but they share that bleach blonde hair…every time I see your pictures of your Chase it makes me think of mine. I am sobbing here thinking about what you must be going through; I can’t even imagine the fear of the unknown. Please know you, Ryan, and of course little Chase are in my prayers. I pray for peace and comfort for you and Ryan, continued strength and support for you from Ryan, and of course continued strength for Chase.
Anything unknown is hard. But when it involves our babies, that’s the hardest of hard! Praying for you, Ryan and sweet Chase!
Hi Julie, I’m a new reader of your blog (I’ve been binge reading it for the past couple of weeks and can’t get enough!), but I just wanted to stop in and wish you the best of luck with the test results. Sending all the love to you and your family and I have my fingers crossed for the results you’re hoping for! Stay strong xx.
Many prayers and good vibes headed your way! God will hold you and your family and guide you. Thanks for including us in your life everyday! ?
So many prayers for you and your family! I know waiting is the hardest thing…Chase is a strong and beautiful baby boy, he will be just fine!
From one mama to another sending love and hugs. I know you’d trade places with Chase in a heartbeat , worrying and wondering is a terrible feeling . Positive thoughts and love coming from Sully and I xo
Keeping your family in my thoughts and prayers!!
Oh sweet Julie!! I hope and pray for nothing but good news for you, Ryan and your sweet and precious little boy! Positive thoughts are always best! You can only do what you are doing. Keep your chin up 🙂
Julie, adding you, Ryan and Chase to my prayer list. Hang in there?
Sending thoughts and prayers to you all!
Sweet Julie, my mama heart feels for what you are going through right now. I am sending you, Chase, and Ryan tons of positivity, support, and loving prayers. BIG hugs to you!! <3
Sending you hugs!!
Sending you prayers Julie. I hope you take small comfort in knowing that, for many people, you are often a bright spot for them when they are having a bad day. Reading your blog is such a pleasure, and through it you spread so much happiness. I am certain that that goodwill will circle back toward you <3
Even though I don’t know you guys, I thought of you all several times this weekend. I am sorry you are having to go through this waiting but Chase is a strong healthy boy who has loving parents. Praying for you all.
Prayers for your family! ???
Sending good thoughts your way, Julie! Hang in there and keep the faith that you will be hearing GOOD news soon.
Praying for you! As a new momma I understand the worrying! My LO is on the small side too at 4 months old and it worries me too. I cannot imagine the stress you are going through.
Praying for your family! Hope you get some answers – waiting is agony 🙁
Isaiah 41:10
I can’t imagine the stress and anxiety you are going through as you wait for the results:( I’m sending my thoughts and prayers to you and your family, and I hope you receive your answers soon. One thing is for sure – you have such a sweet, happy little baby boy! Such a blessing:)
xo
When I read your Friday post I thought it could be something to do with either Chase or your family, but wasn’t sure. Sending you lots of light that your little man’s okay and lots of light you too 🙂
Keeping you, Chase and Ryan in my thoughts during this time!! NOTHING on this Earth will bring you to your knees than any inkling something may be “wrong” with your baby. You are a strong woman and you and your husband are raising a wonderful baby boy. This waiting period will continually remind you of this…
Stay strong and keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.